miércoles, abril 27, 2005

Bits and pieces

It´s terrible, now if I speak english, spanish expressions would wanna fly out of my mouth. Guess it´s pretty normal for language-learners. I also just noticed that I was speaking Spanish to Lola, Ivan´s cat. Scary.

Speaking of the cat, it tried to apply some self-defense on me. That was pretty scary, I´d freaked out if I was attacked by a cat. I think I accidently stepped on her tail and she turned around and showed me her "crouching tiger" move with the expression and all. That was really scary. I found myself trying to speak really gently to her, "Lola...Lola..." trying to coax her down and hoping that she understands that I´m her friend, not an enemy. After about five minutes she was brushing herself against me as she swayed past. Uff (spanish, for ´gosh´) that was close. I wouldn´t wanna be like Melena, the cleaning lady, who´s scarred by Lola for life now. Word has it that she had a similar encounter and was actually attacked by her. Melena is completely petrified by Lola. We´ve to send Lola out to the balcony every Friday morning. If we forget, Lola would be locked in my room and my room would be left uncleaned. Humpfff...

miércoles, abril 13, 2005

More of You and less of me

i'm holding fast to You Lord, i won't let go!
i'm laying down my rights so You can take control
i'm holding fast to your ways and not my own
i pray Your kingdom come, my kingdom go.

i'm letting go of me, Lord, to find Your heart
i'm trading all of who i am for who You are
i'm letting go of my ways and breaking free
i'm crying out for more of You and less of me

and i will give you my passion
i will give you all my faithfulness!
won't You pour out Your spirit
won't You fill me with your holiness!

fill me Father, fill me Jesus (fill me Spirit)
with your precious living water

Jeff Deyo- Fill Me

What a refreshing revelation... more of Him and less of me. This is my desire.
In the midst of our busyness and daily goingabouts we forget that we can tap the goodness and greatness of our Heavenly Father. We forget that God can help us even in the most trivial and/or mundane things e.g. selling my car. We forget that He desires a continuous conversation with us.. a truly intimate relationship when we are constantly in communication with Him -- a prayerful heart, a heart of worship.

Through my all my experiences, I realized that I cannot let Him go. Sin Dios yo soy nada. Without God I'm nothing. I am watered down to nothing when His prescence in my life equals nil. I feel very much like David -- again and again he messed up, but again and again God forgives him, and again and again He seeks after God's own heart. From trial and error, he realized that obedience is key.

Everything in this world will fade away one day. Where do you place your hope? What drives you in your life? What do you live for each day? I'm so glad I have Jesus in my life. Because of his act on the cross, he died and rose again, my old self can die and I can be reborn. Now my life is full of hope, full of purpose, and I live each day having the security of God's love, and I know if anything happens to me, I have God whom I can rely on. Nothing can deter me, nothing can crush me, nothing can do me harm. Even if bad things happen to me, I know and I know that I can rely on God's strength. I know He's there for me 24/7. I have a new life that is truly abundant now because I live in God and God lives in me. He lives in my heart. The eternal relationship starts here on earth.

viernes, abril 08, 2005

Lessons from the giant-slayer

My thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways, so as the heavens are as high as the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts higher than your thoughts...

God´s ways are indeed the best. I am thankful for the giants in my life that God is teaching me to defeat. They exist so I can emerge stronger. They exist so I can confront life valiently. They exist so I can be bold and courageous. They exist because God wants me to be a warrior after His own heart, just like David. David messed up a zillion times, but again and again he realized his mistakes and cried out to God for help. Again and again, God forgave him and he learned his mistakes, and again and again he is renewed. We are all like David. We´re not perfect. Many times we fall, but we need to be able to learn from our lessons and humble ourselves to allow God to intervene. We must trust that He´ll assist us and empower us to defeat the giants in our lives. What are the giants in your life? How are you dealing with the giants of your life?